As is the case with a terminal illness, things have not gotten better over the years, but my mindset has shifted.
I no longer harbour the anger and sadness I once did. I still have days where I mourn the person you were or would be, but I have learned to love you for who you are today. My expectations have changed, and I can now find the joy in spending time with you and appreciating the person you are today, because I know that tomorrow everything will change.
I hope that by sharing these letters, perhaps someone else can sense the emotions I felt and know that they are not alone.
This disease has taken a lot from me, but I do believe that I am a stronger and more resilient person because of it. There are so many things that I needed to express, and I hope whoever reads these letters to you will find solace in the words I could never say.